It's Dec..

Wow..x mas is just around the corner and Im really vy vy bc recently.I have not been updating my blog for quite some times (since Deepavaili..my gosh @.@).. what a breathless Dec and really dun have time or energy to think of what to write.Sleep is what I could think of all the time.. haha.. Somemore the weather nowadays is so bad where it was so hard to prevent myself from falling sick; So many important things to be done for the previous weeks and Thank God that I succeeded in fighting with all the sickness through supplements, herbs for the past few weeks.. Competition, audition, they're all over finally.. =P

Wanna share about the competition that I went in sabah 2 weeks ago. It was a tight and hectic one. 3 hours flight to Tawau, exhausted and hungry when I got down from the plane. Thank God that our fren's mum prepared nice food for our supper.Love the Siu Mai made by his mum for lunch the nx day as well.Arh.. miss the super nice food badly.. XD

Ac I have quite a long story to tell about the competition, but gonna cut it short coz not much energy left for blogging. Haha.My brain gets blank easily.So I better type faster before I miss out any important thing. Im so thankful(of all I can say) coz I managed to go through the hectic schedule with almost falling sick condition.The first night of the competition (Semi-Final)was so so so so (x10000000000 times) long coz I got no. 18 out of 20 participants.Nervous, helpless..dunno how to describe my feeling for tat time.Even though my friends were joking, chatting there, I remained cool. I didn't Ban Cool, just din have the mood to share I guess. It was hard to make a smile on my face.. sigh..

I dunno what I was thinking n that kinda feeling seemed like tearing me into parts.. Hou scared ar.. ok, so mayb some ppl re wondering what is so scary oh, go on stage and sing only mar.. what is so difficult. Even though tat time I also trying to console myself this way but I still felt vy helpless. Used to pray before the competition and harder before my turn to sing on stage. But somehow I was still feeling vy helpless..Minutes before I got onto the stage, I suddenly felt peace in my heart, it's like I din feel I was alone anymore. I really forgot how I got through this and the outcome was better than wat I expected. Again, this kinda feeling was just the same like few months ago, I just couldn't believe I'd gone through this. Yet what I believing is HE'S REALLY GREATTT!

I managed to get into final and I knew that it was not easy to win as lotsa great singers in the competition.Nth much to think about and I just told myself what I have to do is dun stop believing and just sing like the way my teacher taught me. Since HE had led me to this stage, I believed that HE will lead me further.But I somehow felt nervous before my turn to sing. Haha. When I was preparing at backstage, thank God for sending an angel and when she passed by me, she said: God be with u. She is a sis from Sarawak who sat nx to me on the bus. That moment, my tears nearly come out, it was so.......Besides, I believed that HE had also sent many angels to give me comments on my singing, support, care.. etc..  we struggled, we got nervous together, we encouraged each other.It was really a vy good experience I would say. Also, not to forget Sir's guidance all the while, kept on reminding myself to just express and sing like the way he taught me, really thank him for evything.. :)

So this is the end of the competition story. Haha. Oh before I forget, I just got consolation prize in the competition but I got sth worth more than prize I guess. Sometimes in life, the road is not that easy to walk through. We feel helpless, we complained, we struggled.. We step forward without any direction, we feel scared,unsure where to go. HE didn't promise that ur road will always be smooth, but HE promised us he will never leave. There's always a light that guide when u re willing to open your heart. Peace is always there.The process itself will be a memorable one as when u fell again u know how to get up by urself.

Aiks..couldn't stop myself from being so long winded. lol. In fact I love to blog about things happening in my life,but I prefer to share the GRACE that I encountered in my life.I hope I would never forget the title of my blog: "The Window of Grace" when it's translated from Chinese.=P and never go out of topic.

So before I end this blogpost, I wish evyone a Merry and Blessed X mas & a Happy New year!! If u have any question/curiosity etc, feel free to email me. Btw it was not the end of the whole story, and let the photos tell u the rest of it. Take care. :) 

Supper prepared by Peter's mum.. Soooooo NICE! :P

The angels.. I wish I could photoshop Yee Fen inside also.. :P

Day 1- The Female Finalists

Junie, Karen & I..

Junie--my pianist..the humorous one.. :P

Day 2- Female Finalist

Chian Chian, ur mum was there.. So glad to see her again! :P

Yik Ling's mum in the middle.. Thank her for treating us lunch :P

North region participants

Before competition

X mas Caroling in Ikea..

Lynedee, Sze Ying & me..

It's Time for A Change!

What a lovely Sun, woke up early as usual. Had Asam Laksa as breakfast for the morning, it's just wonderful. When I was driving home, some inspirations just came across my mind, and I hope I wun bore u when I blog about this. =P

Ok,when I look at myself lately, I have this thought that Im ac locking myself in a square box.Though there's up and down in life, but after solving all the matters, I usually go back to the box again.Im 23,look back to the years I've walked through,I would say I was most active in the primary school,I could simply grab all the chances, works and fight on them. Secondary school still ok but when come to Uni, I somehow felt that I was ac slowing down my pace. Wat a sad thing :(

Probably becoz I'd become one of the modern world trend followers.I believe some trends n its influence have their advantages n drawbacks. But more importantly, we must draw a limit inside us so we wun be over doing it. In real life, mayb we are just too concern about beauty, wealth, food, drinks etc.. anything that satisfy ourselves easily but never fulfill the true needs inside us. And it goes as easy as it comes also.In short,we spend most of the time to achieve the standard of the world.Sometimes I feel like I live like this becoz other ppl are living like that as well.So why do I bother to change?

In fact, it's bored and it never satisfy my inner needs.I dunno whether U have this kinda feeling before,it happened once when I removed my make up,I could feel the emptiness when I saw myself so "NAKED" in front of the mirror. Moment ago I was still Syok-ing on the make up,coz make up always make girls look nicer right.Yet after removing it I found that Im still an ordinary girl.

Back to the topic, few years ago I still felt that I was quite young when I first stepped into Uni, but not anymore now. Im soon turning 24,25,26,27.. arh.. my 30's will be approaching.. haha..And wat have I done?? I know mayb Im just scaring myself too early in this stage, but let me tell u,time just passes evyday like nobody business within the 24 hours without u realizing it. Certain thing is just in right timing for us to do when we re still physically and mentally healthy. So what's nx Im going to do?? 

Yes I need a change. First, I certainly need to change my heart n mind. Secondly,be more daring to try out new things (good things always!=P).Thirdly, be more humble in learning. I think to work on these 3 things I definitely need alot of determination, self-motivation, self-control and strength.

Another thing to share is about the accident happened in Melaka on 10/10/10 which evyone supposed a good day.Yet tragedy happened.Frankly speaking no one expected this to happen as I was shocked when I knew my fren was one of the victims. Thank God he's fine, just some minor injuries on head and face. Life is just way too fragile than u and I can understand. From the moment we re born, mayb sth is destined or created before we exist but for the living ppl like us, we should really appreciate our loved-one around us, utilize our time for meaningful stuff, and more importantly, to ac know wat U re believing in. As I always remind myself: Miracles happen to those who believe.    

This blog post looks rather like a New Year's resolution.Haha. In fact New Year is not far from now.Take this 2 months time to think about a change for urself!(if you need to)

Irrelevant to the things I've blogged above, I seriously need one Dark Mocha Frappuccino for this lovely Sun again!! :P Take care evyone...

(p/s: These re just some of my personal thoughts, U dun have to agree about it. But I do hope it somehow reminds U and I to have some changes in lives! =P)

10/10/10

对，华语台转回来了。哈～～　今天是10/10/10，一生人只有一次，也只会出现在这个blog那么一次～～要好好珍惜这个机会呢！可能很多人都认为这是个特别的节日吧，不过对于我好像没什么特别，比平时懒了些，又吃又睡。不知道为什么可能受某些人影响我也不是很在乎一些节日了，好像心有点灰似的。因为有时候期望越高，失望越大。我觉得自己好像越来越不像自己，我不知道是不是好事，可是我真的很想有那么一天就只做自己想做的事（肯定是合法的事！），不必顾虑那么多，就那么一天就够了！或许下一个 11/11/11我可以做到？！　


做么好像越讲越悲@.@～～哈哈。ok今天这么有历史性的一天我应该让自己happy一下。也觉得是时候调整一下自己，也为自己打算一下。我不能再虚度日子，太舒服于现况了。我要突破！！
而且趁年青要更勇于尝试～～HARRRR！！

话说回来，周末又将要到尾声了，自己和朋友去"趣台北"吃了一顿，东西不是说特别好吃，再加上我叫的鲁肉面就好像今天午餐的古晋干捞面，汗！！有一点Geli,还是把食物往肚子吞，不过总算有一点点满足了我的食欲，有一点点happy的感觉，下次真的要问清楚才好叫。顺便也拍了些照片，不过我手机里的相机很烂，paiseh.. =.=。　

是不是很像sarawak的干捞面？+.+

朋友吃的面线，还不错哦～～

虽然没有特别庆祝这一天，不过吃了这餐，总算给自己在10/10/10的一个鼓励。好吧，期待下个11/11/11,希望到时的我会不一样，如果这个blog,我是说“如果”还存在，就可以再update啦。在这一天10/10/10如果你立定心志要做什么就要坚持到底，要有“小强”打不死的精神，因为我相信往往会成功的人都有着一份出众的毅力与坚持！更重要的是信念，搞清楚你相信的是谁，是信仰呢？自己呢？别人呢？有无数的可能。


最后少不了饭后零食，我最爱的紫菜．．．吃不完还可以把包装袋zip起来，超方便！ =P　晚安。